From the time I found out I was pregnant people started preaching to me you need to start realizing you aren’t living for you anymore but for your child, you will start to change your way of living because now it’s about what’s best for him. By the time I was six months pregnant I didn’t get it, I was merely nodding my head saying oh yea I know what you mean. Was I a bad parent because I hadn’t changed my life decisions to be for my son yet?
So here I was supposed to be starting my last year of my MBA program and I was six and half months pregnant, what was I supposed to do? Do I take a leave of absence and come back after I had my baby, but would I really come back? My baby was due two weeks before finals, how could I possibly take my finals when I was going to be in labor? Would my teachers even let me miss school?
I spent the whole summer going back and forth, do I keep going with school or do I take a break? I was in and out of the hospital all summer with pregnancy issues could I really make it through four months of school and maintain my 4.0 GPA? As the summer came to an end I realized that this was a decision that needed to make now, it no longer was a decision that I could make down the road.
I took a step back and realized it is no longer about what is easy for me or what is best for me. Now my life was going to be about what is best for my son, what is going to make his life easy? For as long as I can remember I have always said that I would get my Master’s Degree even if I never used it, so what kind of parent would I be if I just gave up on my dream because it got tough?
I then realized I was growing up, I was becoming a parent and I didn’t even know it. I didn’t know how I was going to full work time, go to school, and prepare for a baby but hey I’ve made it through everyday so far so I will continue to find a way to do it all. You don’t realize how much you are able to accomplish until you push yourself, you don’t realize you are becoming a parent before child is even here until you are forced to make a big decision. Doing it all is tough … but it’s worth it all when I hold my son.
When did that moment hit you when you said, wow I am becoming a parent?